Dear Gavin: A Love Letter to My Six Month Old

(I will update the weight and length after our doctor appointment on Wednesday.)

How long is a lifetime?

For you, it is six months.

And for me too, sort of. Because it seems like you have been in this world and in our family for ever. It feels like our family wasn’t really complete without you.

But six months really is just such a short time. And you, my precious little boy, have used these six months to change the world.

There is something just so special about you Gavin: Your joy. It is impossible to ignore and it is contagious to the highest degree. Everyone notices it. Everyone knows that you are Gavin the Happy Baby.

I am so proud of you for that.

Can I tell you something? I was scared to bring another baby into our family. I wanted you. Oh, I wanted you so badly. But sometimes the things we want most of all are the scariest. I was scared that I would not be able to handle two kids. I was scared that I only wanted another baby so that I could give your brother a sibling. I was scared that I wouldn’t be able to give you enough attention or that I wouldn’t be able to give your brother enough attention, or that, worst of all, I might not be able to give either of you enough attention. I had no idea how my heart could love two babies at once.

Oh, Gavin. My heart has so much love to give. I love you, my little baby. I love you more than I ever knew was possible.

Our family is different with you in it. Better, in fact. The new relationship you have forged with each of us has changed our world forever. And Gavin, you will never know only-child-Cameron. And I’m glad. Cameron as an only child was amazing. But by making Cameron a brother, you have given him a special little spark. You did that Buddy. I am so excited for this relationship that is blossoming between the two of you.

One. Two. Three. Four. Fix. Six.

That’s how many months we have had you.

183 days.

Not long in the grand scheme of things.

Just long enough for me to know that my life is so much better now that you’re here.

Love you forever and always, always and forever,

Mama. Yours.

P.S. I wish today was better for you Buddy. I’m pretty sure you have more teeth coming. You’ve been uncomfortable all day and I’ve just spent the night soothing your poor little uncomfortable self. You’ve been sick and tired and fussy and my heart has just broken for you. But still, amongst it all, there have been smiles. Thank you for being the wonderful, incredible you that you are. We love you.

6 month comparison

THE STORY DOESN’T HAVE TO END:

• The Love of a Mother
• The Tweetest Thing: A Birth Story
• Dear Cameron: A Love Letter to My Six Month Old

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