I don’t know how to rectify this feeling
I’m feeling.

This numbness.

This emptiness.

Empty.

Even though
I didn’t know you for very long.

You were a part of me.
Are a part of me.

A part of this family.

And
We loved you.
Love you.
We had big plans for you.
For us.

Huge dreams for such an insubstantial being.
Still so significant.

Grief
I can’t justify.
It doesn’t make sense.
Why
you were here. Where you here?
Why
you are gone.

A lifetime of grief for not even a week.

Your Daddy said that I looked happy.

Your Daddy was happy.

You were ours.
Are ours.
Our secret.  Our joy.  Our future.  Our family.
Always.

My womb is empty.

Without you.

Always your Mama.

Laura (@LauraORourke) lives in Halifax, Nova Scotia. A wife to Dan and a mother to Cameron, she spends her free time blogging, reading, and doing photography. Her blog finds its home at http://miraclesofamily.blogspot.com.  You can find find her book reviews here and her photography here.